So I seen you yesterday.

You looked shocked that I was there, and then you came up to me and asked for a hug.
I hugged you, and all I could think was 'Stay forever, forget her and I'll forget him'. But I knew I had to let go.
You kept making comments about when we were going out.
I would give anything to run away with you, were no-one will judge or stop us from being together.
Why has this year been horrible for us?
I want to be with you.


But you have her, I have him.
You seem that you don't want to be with her, but your just with her because she is the only one that you can be with.
I don't know weither I truly love him.
I want to leave but i will hurt him and will be hurt because I wont be with you.
But if i stay I will be living a lie and I will say that I love him with all i have, but the truth is that you mean more to me then him.

I wish this was 'Love' was easier and I just wish it wouldnt eat me alive.


</3 God please tell me what to do :''(

Well its been ages since the last time i could call you mine... i know what to do but im scared to change everyones life! I love you so much and i dont see me loving someone else at all! I LOVE YOU Y CANT THEY SEE THIS???

My New Years Resolutions

1. To be with him forever!
2. Never regret any moments in 2011!
3. To live my life to the fullest!
4. To forget the people I had in my life, and be glad to have those people in my life at that time!
5. Forget bitches who lye to my face!
6. Tell wankers what I really think about them!
7. To not let people push me around!
8. To be myself aound my friends and family!
9. To hate those people who screw with my head!
10. To stop counting on this blog!! LOL!!

he's the one that completes me. the one i have loved the most through the years. the one that i want to have cuddles with every minute. he completes me in a million ways that i can't explain. the way he holds me tight like he never wants me to move. the way we lye together at his house and never takes eyes off each others. the way he sneaks behind the door and scares me when i walk through. the way he controls my movement when he pushes me up against the wall to kiss me. the way he kisses me makes me breathless and want more. or maybe just even the way he looks at me makes me feel like the only one in the whole world.

i really do love you and i don't want anything to change... ily...

ms jelly-fish xx

Why does it always have to go pass you? Why cant i live a normal life without you interfering with it? Yeah maybe it is life but i have to experience stuff at this age! You told me that you did the same thing when you were my age... SO WHY CANT I DO THE SAME?????

i hate that i have to listen to them bag you all of the time... i hate the fact i have to try and forget every single moment i had with you... I wanna leave! Get away from all of them! Run away with you so i can be with you forever! iloveyou and atm i dont care where my future lies with you all i want is to have you hold me every single time! i love you!

You are my father, but u never acted like mine! For fucking three years I havent talked to u and ignoring the friendship requests from you... What do u think I am a fucking teenager that regrets not having u in my life???? Well I got fucking news for you! I shall never act like ur fucking daughter and I am never excepting u in my life again!!! So face the fucking fact!!!!!!! U made me believe ur fucking lies for years!! Saying that my mother didnt want me! Or maybe U WOULDNT GIVE ME BACK!!!!!!
Fuck i hate you!